Your baby boy here
dating this September 1st
been in Austin now for four years
I drove here in my '03 Malibu all alone
ironically, leaving the crib searching for home here
it's been good, I've grown here
been to a number of shows here
appreciating the fact it's not really cold here
it's pretty warm here
OK, I'm rambling, let me get to the point here
I miss you, man
didn't think I'd be crying
guess it doesn't really hit you til you sit
get to wishing that I could say it in person
or over the phone, or open my home
come and visit, you take the bed
I'll hit the couch or the floor
it doesn't matter
long as you hanging out with your boy
would have loved to have you
just come and chat for however long you please
or however long you need
or however long it ever was you'd be

It's crazy, years just seem to fly by...
the scene I can't bypass is...
my feelings mixed, a lot of things I feel I missed...

it's crazy, the years seem to fly by
I don't give it a second thought
til I'm thinking am I colder than I thought
where was your heart?
where was your mind?
where did you fail?
you should've tried
see, the scene I can't bypass
is the time that I didn't hug you
or say I love you
not knowing that, that time
was the last time
I would have time
for me and dad time
my feelings mixed, a lot of things I feel I missed
but little kids don't understand
they'll later be adults feeling this
if they don't take the time to make memories
and fill them in, in order to reminisce
see, what I'm saying is
I got comfortable with you not being around
so the idea of coming to Grandma's house was a burden
cause then I'd have to be in a house
with a side of my family I felt like a different being around

So the chip is on my shoulder...
so I reacted in kind to keep the act up...
it's like that weekend was meant for me to see that...

then that just grows and fester as I get older
and supposed to be known for knowing better
so the chip is on my shoulder
whether short sleeve, coat or sweater
ain't no taking it off, gotta wear it
even in the warmest weather
this led to me taking on feelings of the other three
trying to spare their younger brother
the disappointment that they'd come to be accustomed to
so I reacted in kind
to keep the act up of trying not to put my trust in you
and it's fucked up when
you feel like it's a punishment
to spend time with your father
cause you think "what would come from this?"
surprisingly, it turns out to be he
who you got your personality
and some of your best stuff from, kid
It's like that weekend was meant for me to see that
you shouldn't take time and life for granted
and I've seen that
but that don't comfort me
when I want to see you or wanna speak
so I stare at mirrors hoping that you see back
and see me trying to be me
hope I make you proud even if it's just a little
cause I have my doubts
but imagine there's at least a thing or two
about me that you would've brag about
but let me end it with this
I'm sorry for being stubborn
hate the time that we missed
and I'm sorry for being foolish
can you try and forgive
cause I'm dying to reunite with you
and try it again, Pops